FreiWillig – Episode 8: A Whore for One Night

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Inspired by real life events.

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I’m torn… I almost wish I hadn’t said anything. But you know me well enough to know that something is going on inside me. And I’ve never lied to you before, so I’m not gonna start now.
“Hanna, if it’s tempting, we’ll do it, but on my terms.” Make arrangements, and either he accepts them, or it doesn’t work out. “
I’m not sure if you’re just saying that to avoid resisting and limiting me, or if you really think that’s okay. And what do I want? The subject hasn’t let go of me since his request came, but that you want to give me away so easily doesn’t suit me either – not at all. It hurts me… a lot. I would have expected you to forbid it on principle. You didn’t even ask for time to think about it. No, between the main course and dessert, at your favorite restaurant, you give me your permission. I’m hit. For weeks I’ve been floating through my daily routine like on a cloud and, thanks to you, I feel so special and absolutely wanted. Everything seems easier knowing I have you. Nothing and nobody can do anything to me. I am your little girl. And now you want to share me not only with my partner, but also with a stranger? Then again, I asked, and you’ve never restricted me before. On the contrary. You’ve always made me live out my deepest desires. So, it’s the same now.
You take a sip of red wine and then look at me over the glass. “What’s your problem, little girl?”
I put my spoon aside and lower my eyes. It’s hard for me to formulate. I don’t want to ruin anything between us. That’s what I’m afraid of. You mean a lot to me. I’ve never been touched so deeply by a man… If I take this step, will things change between us? And if not right now, then maybe sometime in the future? What if you can’t see me with the same eyes that you have now? My mind is spinning all over the place. At this moment I am on a par with you, you make me feel, in every gesture, how important I am to you. I can’t risk it. I don’t ever want to risk it. I wouldn’t give up this feeling for anything.
If something should change afterward, it is not worth the experience. But how do I tell you this so that you don’t feel you have to allow me to do it, for my happiness? You are my happiness. But I can’t say that either, I don’t want to sound like a teenager in love. In love, hmm… I’m having a hard time saying what this is between us, but it doesn’t have to have a name, right? You’re okay. I’m okay. We’re good, we’re rich, we have such a great time together. So far, I have also gotten around such moments well or it has been good because you were in a similarly affectionate mood. Eye level. I’m afraid that I will lose your patronage if I go through with this date, but I can’t say that at all. My throat’s tight. And a teardrop rolls down my cheek.
When you see this, you immediately put your glass on the table, come over to me and even crouch down for me. You look at me so lovingly and tenderly.
“Hey, little girl. No need for tears.”

I stroke my cheek and you grab the fingers of this very hand. Fascinated, I watch you lick my tears from my fingers and kiss my crests so tenderly. You smile.
“Hanna, we’re just doing what you want. And if you want the experience with him, that’s totally fine by me.”
Tears threaten to rise again, but then you say: “But I will not let you go alone. You belong to me and this little adventure with this guy will not change that. “
I look at you with big eyes. I wonder what you mean. But this is all too much for me right now. I’ll ask that some other time, now I just don’t want to ruin this lovely evening with you by talking about it. You asked me to wear that black dress for you, with the wide back neckline, you can see a little bit of my cheeks and you love that. Because otherwise I’ll look very respectable in it until I just show up from behind. And you, sir, know better than anyone that I’m anything but decent… I have made myself up to your liking. You …

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